a flash of delight

“People are never more insecure than when they become obsessed with their fears at the expense of their dreams.”
Norman Cousins

I’m so ready for 2010. No offense 2009 but I’m washing my hands of you. You were a tricky little year and I fear that in many cases you got your way. But it’s okay because 2010 has promised to be full of opportunity, inspiration and adventure. I trust you 2010.

This next year is going to be decision making time in quite a few aspects of my life. Oh decisions… and choices… I’m not so good at them

But this got me thinking about the decisions I’ve made that I’m proud of and have not regretted or second guessed. What made those decisions easy? They were the decisions that were 100% mine. It was when I was doing what I knew in my heart I wanted to do. Not what I thought I should be doing, not what my friends were necessarily doing, and not what was always the easiest or most practical.

When I was 19 I left home for the first time to live in the UK for a year. Why? Because I’d become obsessed with The Real World London reruns. I wasn’t worried about whether it was normal to leave the country for a year after high school or that most of my friends were sticking around home, and it never occurred to me that it might be a “waste of time”.

There are other examples of course: switching jobs, the decision to be baptized, leaving California to go to BYU, moving back to London the second time, getting a puppy, and the decision to go on a mission to name a few.

Maybe I’m not so bad at making desicions when I listen to my heart and to my Heavenly Father.

I need to remember that this year.

Photo via Pia Jane Bijkerk – she hit the self timer and ran. So awesome. If there is anyone to inspire you to follow your dreams it’s Pia.