I was looking through my journal for a quote I knew I’d written down sometime in the last 3 years and realized it was a next to impossible task. Then I was going through Google reader and there it was:

“Learn to value yourself, which means: fight for your happiness.” – Ayn Rand

And also I’m giving my notice on Tuesday.

Our CEO left for Italy on Friday… I didn’t plan it to quit while he was gone though.. I swear.

I’m nervous… I’ve never really just quit…

I’m excited.

I’m scared.

I’m ready.

You have it in writing now.

Yikes.

Can I quit by text message?

photo by Coquinete

I love the Hipstamatic app for my iPhone and the other day Susannah mentioned a new “Hipstapack” that was available: the Mission, which includes the Bettie XL lens and Ina’s 1935 film. It gives a pink-ish blur with kind of dust spots on the photo. I kind of love it.

I decided to give bigcartel.com a try for selling a few items. (mostly because I hate eBay with the fire of 1,000 suns)

A few very kind souls have asked about buying prints of some of my Polaroids so once I get my rear in gear I’ll put them here too. Until then you get my shoes. Happy shopping!

xo

edit:: Beynac-et-Cazenac, France

(I can’t just call it Beynac because that is another village 173 km away … as Trisha and I found out at 1 am)

I usually set my alarm on my iPod as a back up… in case I don’t hear the one on my phone. Friday and Saturday mornings I have to get up at 3:45 am which is the cruelest part of my week. I can’t even think about it. Oh yeah, but this weekend my wake up song was Moon River from Breakfast at Tiffany’s. I love this movie. I love this song. Ever since I first saw the movie I’ve wanted to dance to this song at my wedding.

It’s much better than waking up pre-dawn to “We’ve Got More Bounce in California”…

Anyway…

I want Victoria to decorate my room/house/life… she’s has great taste!

I really loved this post by Bethany about America’s obsession with gossip.

And I really loved this talk from General Conference

I used John Lennon’s birthday as an excuse to shamelessly listen to my favorite Beatles tunes over and over all weekend.

Loving Max Wanger’s polaroids

I knew I liked Johnny Depp

Okay… on to a new week! This is the week I tell my boss I am cutting back a day. WISH ME LUCK!

While I have a lot of cameras I have no real camera bag.

But while we were in France, Naomi had this bag and I loved it but I was too shy to ask where she got it. I actually didn’t even realize it was a camera bag. I thought it was a cute bag from Anthropologie or something.

Then she mentioned it over here and well you know me…

So yes, I am a bag stalker.

Now back to the spending freeze. For serious.

You guys I’m quitting my job. I have to. Every day I come in and people are so catty and negative and petty and snide and I feel it effecting me. Maybe I’m overly sensitive to it but I feel it making me less of the happy person I know I am.

You must constantly ask yourself these questions: Who am I around? What are they doing to me? What have they got me reading? What have they got me saying? Where do they have me going? What do they have me thinking? And most important, what do they have me becoming? Then ask yourself the big question: Is that okay? Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.
—Jim Rohn

I’m not quitting just because I work with unpleasant people. The politics of the company are… uncomfortable I guess is a good word. And I think the way a company treats their employees says a lot. There’s also not a lot of room for growth. I’ve basically done all I can do here. There are a lot of reasons but I can’t really go into detail.

This is a scary thing. I do not have another job lined up. I am still in the middle of stupid, stupid “legal action” with Walmart. And a bunch of other lame stuff has happened that makes the logical side of my brain scream, “Don’t do it!” (the logical side of my brain is basically my mom) But what could be more motivating to find a new job than not having one??

Rachel asked if I only had 5 years left to live would I want to spend the majority of each day at this job. The answer is a big, fat NO. So what am I waiting for?

But there’s that part of me that always feels like I’m supposed to “stick it out” and not “be a quitter”. I read somewhere that “sometimes determination serves no purpose and becomes an end unto itself.” Maybe sometimes you need to move on. You can call it being a quitter if you like.

Being the scaredy cat that I am I’m going to just cut back one day and only work 4 days a week. Hopefully I’ll find something small to fill in and go from there.

So what do you think? You can be honest. Am I being stupid? Selfish? A big baby? What would you do?

Tell me quick… I won’t last much longer.

photo credit

So awesome.

I will be a busy, busy bee but hopefully catching up on some much needed sleep. Hopefully I’ll get a chance to take one of my cameras out to play – they’re starting to gather dust.

See you Monday!

xo

photo by Susannah

I am so ready for bundle up weather. Not so much snow but cozy sweaters and scarves and tights.

photo credit: copenhagen street style