courage needed

You guys I’m quitting my job. I have to. Every day I come in and people are so catty and negative and petty and snide and I feel it effecting me. Maybe I’m overly sensitive to it but I feel it making me less of the happy person I know I am.

You must constantly ask yourself these questions: Who am I around? What are they doing to me? What have they got me reading? What have they got me saying? Where do they have me going? What do they have me thinking? And most important, what do they have me becoming? Then ask yourself the big question: Is that okay? Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.
—Jim Rohn

I’m not quitting just because I work with unpleasant people. The politics of the company are… uncomfortable I guess is a good word. And I think the way a company treats their employees says a lot. There’s also not a lot of room for growth. I’ve basically done all I can do here. There are a lot of reasons but I can’t really go into detail.

This is a scary thing. I do not have another job lined up. I am still in the middle of stupid, stupid “legal action” with Walmart. And a bunch of other lame stuff has happened that makes the logical side of my brain scream, “Don’t do it!” (the logical side of my brain is basically my mom) But what could be more motivating to find a new job than not having one??

Rachel asked if I only had 5 years left to live would I want to spend the majority of each day at this job. The answer is a big, fat NO. So what am I waiting for?

But there’s that part of me that always feels like I’m supposed to “stick it out” and not “be a quitter”. I read somewhere that “sometimes determination serves no purpose and becomes an end unto itself.” Maybe sometimes you need to move on. You can call it being a quitter if you like.

Being the scaredy cat that I am I’m going to just cut back one day and only work 4 days a week. Hopefully I’ll find something small to fill in and go from there.

So what do you think? You can be honest. Am I being stupid? Selfish? A big baby? What would you do?

Tell me quick… I won’t last much longer.

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13 thoughts on “courage needed

  1. beautifully written, i love your honesty.

    you NEED to quit. If it's making you feel this bad u need to get out right away!!

    as long as you have enough money saved to get through the next few months, you can do it.

    don't be scared, you'll end up feeling RELIEVED.

  2. i think you are doing the right thing for sure. decisions like this usually end up wrong when they are in the heat of a bad moment. but if you have been feeling this way and you've thought it through, then you need to trust your heart, but more importantly… your brain.

    when i worked full time i always had to at least “like it” (loving a job that isn't your dream job is usually not reality) but as soon as started to dread it… i would start looking for something new and i always quit and was happy i did.

    i did quit a job once when i didn't have another one lined up and i thought i was pretty shnazzy until i ended up draining my savings… so i don't recommend that… :)

    best wishes… xx

  3. you are in no way selfish or a big baby or whatever…you are in control of your life an it is up to you to shape it the way you want.

    you're a lovely person and you deserve to live the life you dream of.

    go with your gut.
    step forward.
    xoxo.

  4. i'm in the same position right now. some days everything is fine, some days it's awful, but even on the days when things are all right, i still wake up dreading having to go in. it's such a stark contrast to my former job, which i loved more than anything but was laid off from due to budget cuts and the bad economy. there's that weird contradiction between involuntarily losing something you love, and voluntarily choosing to do something you hate every day (but keep telling yourself you should be grateful to have when so many don't).

    still, i'm leaning heavily toward letting go. life's too short to be unhappy!

  5. Quit!! Tomorrow!!
    I was in your same situation last december, I couldn't take it anymore with my old job. I've quit. I was as scared as hell, because I'm single, I live alone on rent, and I have eight cats. I saved a little money just to have the time to survive while I figured out what to do. Courage always pays back I suppose, because I'm opening a shop in less then a month and I'm so happy. I'll work on my own, no boss, no stinky coworkers. no company politics I hate. Freedom.
    Quit.
    Good luck.

  6. Know how you feel. Did the four day a week thing for a while as well. It opened up a bit of space for things I was really interested in to surface. Also gives you a little bit more time to figure out what's really going on for you – so you're more prepared to take a leap.

    I'm still free falling a bit, as I don't have a 'job' to go to after recently quitting work. Moved to Delhi for a short project I was just really interested in – sometimes exhilarating, sometimes just hard work. http://conservedelhi2010.wordpress.com/

    But you know what? Barely even thinking about my old job (possibly because i'm too focussed on how to get my underwear dry in subtropical monsoon weather).

    Nice blog. Found you through Pia Jane Bijkerk.
    Tell your 'critic' and your 'anxious' selves to put their feet up with a cup of tea – you know what to do.

    Go well.

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