– Dr. Seuss
I mentioned several months ago that 2010 would be a year of making decisions and the time has come.
It’s funny – I sort of crave change with every fiber of my being and yet when the time comes I want to retreat, change my mind and keep things the same. Even if the same isn’t so great. Dumb, huh?
Lately (well, for the last long while) I’ve found myself sacrificing what I want and what I need and at times even my own happiness because I feel that, in some way, I’ll be able to help the people I care about by keeping things the same. I’m not saying this in an “I’m so wonderful, sacrificing for my family” kind of way. I’m saying in a “Stop making excuses for not doing what you want to do” kind of way.
So what’s my point? I’m not sure I actually have one. Sorry! I just feel like I’m ready to get on with things already. No more excuses, no more fear.
This means the upcoming months will be spent searching (for apartments and jobs and opportunities) and organizing (my life and my house and my head… oh and my blog!) and praying, of course, that everything comes together. I’m sure it will.
In other news my nephew Triston (who is the sweetest boy ever) asked me the other night, “Aunt Vanessa will you make one of your very, very good special cakes for my birthday?” Talk about putting the pressure on! Although I made him some toast with honey the other day and he told me it tasted like heaven so I think I might be okay.
I hope you had a wonderful weekend! xo