a flash of delight

Now is probably not a good time for me to be blogging.

I just got back from Stephanie’s funeral, I’m a little sad, and have a little bit of a stomach ache. And I spent most of the day with my contacts in the wrong eyes. Whoops that was my fault.

First let me say that the funeral was nice. There were a lot of people at the chapel for the memorial service and even more people at Pepper Tree Ranch afterwards. Stephanie was beloved and it was wonderful to spend the afternoon reminiscing and being with friends and looking at her beautiful photography. It was really beautiful but sad. Very sad. Cammy spoke about her “Mommy Honey” and friends shared stories and memories. Allen’s band played Can’t You See (by Marshall Tucker Band) because when he was learning it she told him it was her favorite song. And the end of the service we were all standing around a grassy area at the ranch and we were told to turn to the person on your right and your left and give them a hug while the song What a Wonderful World played. I love that song and it really is a wonderful world… it’s just sad Stephanie is no longer a part of it.

The other thing is that I’ve been looking back over my blog entries and have realized that maybe many of you are thinking to yourselves, “Doesn’t Vanessa have a life? All she blogs about is puppies and primary and super long random lists.” And I’d want to respond, “Of course I have a life.” But the honest to goodness truth is that over the last year I think I’ve slowly turned into a hermit. I ran into so many old friends this weekend that still live around here that I just don’t see hardly ever. Why don’t I see them? Cause I’m a hermit. Maybe it’s because I have a super long commute every day, maybe it’s because of all of the drama going on in my family, maybe it’s because the singles ward/institute is too far away … I don’t know. But I hate the feeling that I’m drifting away from friends. Especially the ones that are right here.
I don’t mean for this to sound super whiney.. but when the only thing you can think of to blog about is a fish lips planter… you have to wonder.

edited 01/18/09… because my blog can be boring. i like it.